Day 45 of the Meaning(less) Reading Plan

Ecclesiastes 7:6 – For as the crackling of thorns under a pot, so is the laughter of the fools; this also is vanity

A few weeks ago I found myself going through a funk. The kind of funk where I’m cranky, don’t want to be around anyone, and it feels like my soul is on fire. I know it’s hard to believe, but I was a negative nelly and just couldn’t see any good in anything. After spending time with a group of men and my counselor last week I felt like I was getting better. Later in the week a friend of mine came by my house and asked me how I was doing and of course I gave him the Christian response, “I’m great man.” Then the gentle rebuke came from him, “seriously Matthew? Cut the crap and tell me how you’re really doing!”

Having these people engage my soul and pray for me has led to my soul not feeling like it’s on fire. I should also say that my wife had to contact some of them to come and engage me. So honestly if it wasn’t for her I’d probably still be in a funk today because of my stubbornness.

I find this verse so intriguing because Solomon is talking about me. It’s as if the fires of trauma are consuming us and the fire itself produces laughter. In other words, we have so much collateral damage and we say, “HA! I’m okay. Even though I’m walking through a dark spot in life or I have a dark secret sin, I’m OKAY!” What? So your soul is burning and it’s no big deal? Yet the wise scream for help. They say they are suffering, in turmoil, have a heart issue, are deteriorating on the inside, and they are on fire and they scream for help.

The amazing thing about the Gospel is that Jesus came for the burn victims. We don’t have to pretend that we aren’t on fire. We can come in a place and say, “No, I’m not okay. My soul and world is engulfed in flames.” And the amazing thing is that Jesus will not push us away, rather he will draw us in to his ocean of grace to put out the fires in our soul.

It is vital that Refuge Point Church continues to be a hospital for the burn victims. However, in order for us to do that, we too must admit that we are burn victims. God delights in our burns and he is not afraid to engage them and put them out.

Are you pretending to live a life externally that says, “I’m okay”, but inwardly you are screaming for help? Jesus says come; he is the doctor who will heal the hurts of your heart.

2 thoughts on “Day 45 of the Meaning(less) Reading Plan

  1. Thank you for being “real”. Would appreciate your prayers. I have so much on my plate still working and caring for my 91 yr old Mama. Feel like I’m drowning at times. Deal with hopelessness a lot.

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